Current Location: Mommanas
Current Music: Drake and Josh :D
Soo, yeah, I just pretty much haven't used this thing in forever so I thought I'd give Shantal something to read because I know she checks this thing all the time, or at least that's what she says... lying whore. Just kidding :D...ish.
I don't really have anything to write about... uhh, I still pretty much don't like the same people and no one has joined that group.. Basically it's just Will... But that's not the point. I still don't know why he called me on Friday, he just wanted to talk. But let me tell you, I didn't want to talk to him but that didn't really matter I guess, because I did anyway, buuut I was bored, that's how I'll make myself feel better about it. He's just a slimy, digusting, pig faced asshole.. and a bad kisser. :D. Let me tell you who is a good kisser... I lied, I'm not going to because I'm sure you can figure it out...
But anywhooo! Nothing new has happened with just about anything, at all. I pretty much try to avoid Tyler because I've never met a more boring person in my life.. But he's still cute and not much is going to change that. See, I don't know what to write about when I'm not here to rant about something, is that bad? I think it might be, but I'll live, you know why? Because I'm going to fucking Dane Cook tomorrow.. and you can't get any better than that! Faaaaa'shoooooo! I'm gunna tap that shit! Just kidding, even though I totally would, and don't tell me you wouldn't... because you'd be lying... bitches.
Ben is...scaring me. He's getting progressivly worse again and it's reminding of right before he went to the hospital. I think it scares me more that he relapsed into drinking (it only happened once, but it still happened) than the huge scar going down his wrist, which he finally fucking talked to me about. I don't know, but I get this weird satisfaction from the fact that he can talk to me about things that he can't talk to his girlfriend about, I think that makes me a bitch, haha. And jealous in a weird way, and I know I am jealous because he sees her everyday, but I guess that that's going to change when he gets his car fixed, and I really think it will because of the things he's been saying to me lately. He was also telling me about how he's doing his thing again, where he goes out with someone for about three months and then ends up not liking them anymore and they actually end up annoying the hell out of him. I had to talk him out of it because.. I don't know why I did. I haven't even met this girl and I don't know if she's any good for him, but I do know that she'd have parties with booz and Ben would be there, which pissed me off more than I'm sure it should have. I just really want him to be okay, he's never actually been okay, he's always been fucked up. Whiiiich I don't like but there's nothing I can really do about it, you know? But I'm there to talk to him whenever he needs it, which is almost every night. He was telling me about how useless he felt and all this stuff, I was freaking out, you have no idea. But I know I got him to feel better because he has this way of talking.. I don't know, it's really hard to explain, but I knew. And that makes me happy.
Nathan won't even fucking talk to me, it drives me insane!!!! Gah! He'll be there next to Janelle or Michelle and be laughing and cracking jokes but he won't even say Hi to me, you don't even know how much that pisses me off. Yes, I'm jealous, I can handle that... It's all because I'm not pretty like they are, which is complete bullshit and really... really makes me mad. But at least I think Bob likes me, he calls all the girls hun, hunny, sweetie, darling, it makes me happy because he does it in a weird, grandpa kind of way, you know? And he house comp'ed my meal last night. Mmm, pesto with parm. chicken...anytime baby, anytime. |
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